Pregnancy & School

Hiiiiiiiiiiii,

It has been a little while since I wrote but simply because my man arrived home surprisingly and delayed me a little. This past week has been quite busy for me from filing tiny little man clothes, getting my books for school and planning his nursery. The biggest question I have received lately is if I am going to finish my degree or not, and/or when I plan on applying for law school after that. Although sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the thought of returning to school once he is here, that truly is what I want to do.

So, the answer to the first question YES - I am finishing my degree and will complete it by the 12th of Decemeber (hehe I have my exam schedule already; I know that'll make my fellow students jealous). Anyways, I decided after I got pregnant that I wanted my degree to be complete before the baby arrived so I took 3 summer courses to be able to only have 3 courses this fall. I will be working on 2 online courses as well as 1 night course on Tuesday nights. I am very grateful that I am not due until January and hope I go full term to ensure I get all of my course work complete. I am just as determined as a upcoming mom to set an example for my little man as I am to do the things I always set out to do. I always wanted to be a young mom and knew there would be sacrifices to be made.

I plan on studying for my LSAT test during the pregnancy and look to take the test in the Spring. I also wish to apply to a law program for the upcoming September and if I get in I will be happy, and if I have to write again and have a second attempt I will be happy too. I am fully prepared to hear people tell me "that's too fast to go back," "its wishful thinking," or "wow, I could never leave my baby that soon." However, I know I am the only one who knows what is right for me and my family and believe that I am doing the right thing. It's funny how life works and I feel saddened that I will face scrutiny for my choices instead of praise (not entirely, but in general).

I can't say it enough that every mom is different and only the mom and dad have the right to decide what is best for their child. It is so important to follow your heart and have a healthy life and just as bad as I want to be a mom I also want a good career and have worked my bum off thus far. I know whatever happens I want my son to be proud of me, to have a good life and for me to be able to provide for him in every way, love, nurturing and happiness. I think every mom deserves recognition from stay at home moms to those working moms; I know you're doing what you can!

Society can be cruel especially with everyone believing their experts in every field of motherhood and development but I know I will follow my dreams and encourage my child to as well. And if you chose to stare at me in the halls because of my choices please reconsider, this is not a road block for me, but a new path I am more than overjoyed to go down!

bye for now,
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oh, and a good friend showed me this http://viralwomen.com/post/10_quotes_about_boys_ and I am in love <3

Boyfriend vs Partner

Hi Everyone,

I WILL START THIS POST OFF WITH A LITTLE ANECDOTE...

One day I was working away at my retail job I had a woman ask me how far along I was, if I knew the sex and how I was feeling. Somehow we ended up on the topic of my man, my partner, my boyfriend, not yet my husband. The lady asked me if the father was in the picture and mortified I said, "of course, my boyfriend and I are happy together and just bought a house." I stopped after that and shut down the rest of the conversation. Why did I feel the need to validate my relationship with the father of my child to a complete stranger, and why did it matter if he was my husband or boyfriend? Well whether or not I want to ignore the situation this will never be so there will be many instances where people will judge me for not being in wedlock and baring a child. I have had many encounters like this since that day and although I am not ashamed that he is my boyfriend I have chosen a different word.... "PARTNER" somehow when I say this they don't notice, they don't question and they leave me alone. 

I know we live in a changing society and I can understand that old-fashioned is still very much a reality but I want to vouch for every child born out of wedlock like myself, you're parents did NOT make a mistake you are meant to be here no matter how it happened. As I go through this pregnancy I couldn't have chosen a better time for myself to get pregnant. I know that this isn't the case for everyone and that's okay too! Life only gives us as much as we can handle so take a breath... breathe with me. I am due in January and will have time to get my degree before the baby arrives.. I could talk about the criticism i have (almost) received from people who didn't know I was planning on returning in the fall. But theres a time for that in another post. Back to my choice of words in explaining my relationship I just want other women to know that you do not need societies acceptance on the status of your relationship even if the father isn't in the picture know that your baby is here for a reason and although it is difficult to understand know that you don't owe anything to society.

I have returned to calling him my boyfriend because you know what? THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT HE IS. Strangers will never know he's my soulmate, my best friend and an absolute dream to come true to be with. He is the man I want to father my children and now he will be. Society is not always going to be harsh and cruel but when it is try and find comfort in knowing that only you know what is right for you and your life.